Blech

I don't know why, but I'm feeling pretty depressed, so I decided to go back to writing here. Today started off on the wrong foot and hasn't really gotten much better. Plus, I have this weird stomachache. I am hoping I will get better ASAP so that I can start studying for my first final tomorrow evening, but it's hard when everyone is getting on your nerves.

It is really hard for me to articulate my thoughts right now for some reason--I'm just in one of those blah states of mind, I guess. It's pretty sad that the year is ending because I have enjoyed the people I have met. However, I have nothing terribly exciting planned for the summer and I fear that I will be going through the same painful job hunting experience as last year. I want the semester to be over, but I want things to stay the same. Very strange.

I can't believe half of my college life is over. I don't feel particularly wonderful about this past semester. Things have been good, but not great, especially since I had to take the rest of my pre-reqs instead of random classes that looked interesting. Things have been going pretty well at the Red Cross, however; with the exception of the past layoffs and upcoming ones as well.

I feel as though I am going through the motions and life is passing me by. There are little bits of happiness here and there, but mostly work, volunteer work, school work, etc. I need "me time." So, I suppose, that will be one of my goals this summer. I may be jobless and incredibly poor, but I am determined to have a great time.
So, on that note, I look forward to the summer and I feel better for having shared a little something with the "outside world." My posts do not usually consist of such depressing matter, so I apologize, but at least there's a little variety. Now I shall nap and read Black Lightning notes...and mostly nap.